Still No News

So it's been 29 days since finding out Rowan is in the top three of the GMA/Babytalk Magazine cover contest. People ask us all the time if he's won or when we'll find out the results but we don't know what to tell them because we don't know ourselves. Arghhh! The suspense is killing me! I know that is just a cliche so it's obviously not true but it is getting to me. My nerves are frayed and I find I'm being short with the children. The problem is not just not knowing. It's also not knowing when we'll know. At least the first time I had a set date to circle on the calendar. I just want the phone to ring and someone to tell me he won or he didn't win. Stop the torture and just tell me the results already. Of course, I want him to win and I'll be pretty devastated if he doesn't win but at this point I really do just want it all to be over.
I do take a lot of comfort in talking to God about it. I know he knows the results. Unfortunately, he's not spilling the beans. There are a lot of great passages in the Bible about patience and God's will and taking care of orphans (that would be feeding them and the like, not winning contests, btw). I also take comfort when I hold Rowan and think, "I've already won the prize. I got him!" It doesn't get any better than that! When I think of where we were a year ago: we had a referrel for this teeny tiny baby, a blurry picture of him and not a court date in site. That is true torture when it comes to wanting something to come and not knowing when it might happen. Every adoptive parent knows exactly what I'm talking about. It says in Habakkuk, "though it linger, wait for it; surely it will come to pass." This will come and pass and life will go on and I will wake up each morning and Rowan will wake up and I will parent him and love on him and thank God for him. And thank God for him.

Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!! Remembering the Day!

So you must know by now that Rowan was one of the three finalists for the Good Morning America/Babytalk Magazine cover contest. It was quite an exciting morning, September 1. I got Luca on the bus at 7:20 and then went for a run. I had to calm my nerves somehow. When I got back Adrian, the girls, and Rowan had GMA on. Adrian thought he knew the results already because the public relations director from Mercyhurst had called him and said she found the winners online. Of course, Adrian wouldn't tell me the three so I immediately assumed Rowan wasn't one of them. I was chagrined and disappointed but kept it together for Henley and Teagan's sake. We got the video camera out and set it up so we could video both the t.v. and our reactions. I'm so glad we did! Of course, Adrian was playing me! First the girl. No surprise there. Then a boy, and not Rowan. Well, that's it, I thought. I had convinced myself Babytalk would pick one boy and two girls. When the host of GMA pulled the sheet from Rowan's picture I swear it took me a whole second to realize it was my son! I was so sure I was about to see a girl's picture that I didn't know what I was looking at. So there was a lot of screaming, jumping, and thanking God going on. What a happy moment! I still thank God. I have said from the beginning he has orchastrated this entire thing. We have not heard the results yet, nor do we know when we will hear. Of course, we want him to win but this entire process has been in God's hands and it still is. One of the best things to come from this entire process has been the opportunities we've had to talk about adoption. Tomorrow we have yet another chance. Adrian and I are going to have a radio interview with The Family Life Network which is a christian radio station out of New York. I have the station on all the time so I feel it's quite a privilege to soon be on it. (I don't think it's going to be live tomorrow though.) I've been praying for these opportunities and God has delivered. This is the third time the media has been interested in our story. God is so big there is no telling where else he may take this or take Rowan. My imagination doesn't stretch that far. For tomorrow, I'm praying that the words that come out of mine and Adrian's mouths will come from God. We want his work to be done. Please pray with us that we will speak articulately and with passion and that the person or persons who need to hear our message will be listening.


I know you can't vote anymore but you may still be able to watch the video clip so I'll leave these links up.
You can watch the video at http://abcnews.go.com/video/playerIndex?id=8461204

You can also see a local news clip about us at YourErie.com


God is in control.